Sunday, September 17, 2006

taking care of and being responsible for six (mentally ill) individuals is a lot of work. its six grown up adult kids i have to run around after and tend to. they are like babies. it is amazing how adults can regress so much into their childhood. it is also amazing to see people who cannot cope with anger but be able to cope & find humor when in pain. and it is so scary and disheartening when you find out your patient is a level 4 pedophile. and it feels weird and wrong when you try to talk to them about suicide ideation or depresson ... bc inside im desperately trying to keep the vomit down. and im feeling like i don't care if he/she lives or dies but just get the fuck out of my face and off my unit. i forgot to eat and go peepee today. nevertheless, i am grateful for my job (im learning alot about human beings and specifically me as one) and i am really VERY lucky. tomorrow will be all about ME & family :)

Friday, September 15, 2006


ooo i really want all these pairs. that would burn a $200 hole in my account :( maybe i will get ONE pair. i really like the first four the best. i will have to catch them all i suppose. 200 bucks for 4 pairs of fall shoes is really not bad.
i am so sad to leave my birkenstocks behind. they are like second skin and a bad habit because i wear them with ALL my outfits ANYWHERE. anytime it gets warm the soles of my feet to the skin between my toes ache to slip on that cow skin and feel the bump that fits so perfect under the ball of my foot. as soon as i stand up it disappears and my feet feel all naked. and i also like to tip my body back and forth to feel the sandals underneath. my birks have also got ice cream drops leftover from the summer.
hehe. sigh. hello fall .
today at work a really old lady patient started screaming incoherently at the top of her lungs in her room. i rushed in and tried to calm her down. then i left. and i was talking to a co-worker about how bloated her stomach was and maybe she was in pain bc her stomach just looked so large and distorted. she took one look at me and said "you do realize that was her boob you've been staring at right?" omg that thing was popping out of her gown and so big it masqueraded as a stomach.
i was tricked!

Monday, September 04, 2006

here are some recent summer pics of the always lovely trips to south haven.
from left to right is matt, dan, eddie, and matt's dad (thanks papa smurf!).
i forgot my camera so these are quick pics from our last day on ning's cam.
they are all of when we had just awaken. hehe.

beach was fun on the last day. the tides were strrong :)
me & ting
some weirdo

ning & me

it was good seeing everyone and being together again.
sigh. this was ting's last weekend w us before she left for nyu this fall
and ning went back to cali, matt to baltimore shortly after this trip.
o le sadness.

Sunday, September 03, 2006

day numero quatro ! aye yai yaiiiiii !!
hehe last night we had three admissions
& i didn't do anything bc i already had a full team . weee lucky charms :)

Friday, September 01, 2006

pheww. yesterday, the first day of my 9 day stretch ended up being a double from 3pm - 7 am.
i am so pooped out. now i will have to drag my butt back in less than 8 hours for another eve shift at 3pm. here goes day number twooooo ! shift number three !!! get psyched.